"When I was much younger, Edward insisted I learned to fish. He told me it was essential to my development as a merchant. I can remember him now, clear as any sun, laughing as my ten year old self frustratedly dragged my lure through the water. "Patience, Narav," he'd say, always smiling, "If you can learn to hook a fish, you can always hook a customer. Same principle." I'm not sure I ever picked up on his meaning there. Humans are so much more complex than fish. I don't really do it for myself these days...fish, I mean. I do it to be close to him."- Narav's journal
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Off the Andaris docks, the small skiff bobbed in the rolling waves. Narav had lashed the boat to the docks earlier in the morning but he found himself rechecking the knots. The water was unusually harsh today, white frosting the crests. Not traditionally a good day to fish, but after the last few Narav wasn't altogether interested in doing it to make money. He baited the hook with a small shrimp he'd snagged earlier today in the wake of more successful fishers bringing their catch to market. There were a few of them in the cheap pail he'd placed on deck, weakly swimming in confused circles. Narav sympathized, feeling like he was smacking his head in a much smaller world as he desperately turned and turned. The insanity with Fridgar, the kidnapping, and Edalene's face when she realized it was him. The frown swam deeper into his face and he speared the struggling shrimp with the barbed edge of the hook. On a whim he twisted it, prompting the little creature to dance in frenzied desperation. A smile found its way to his face and swiftly vanished as Narav realized where it had come from. With a quiet curse on his lips he tied the lure to the fishing line and cast it out into the sea.
Striking the water, the shrimp struggled valiantly before darting out of sight beneath the waves. It wouldn't have the energy or the means to escape the metal speared through its body and perhaps its thrashing would draw a black-back salmon from undearneath the dock. Settling back on the deck, he dropped the pole into the groove where it fit and laid back, letting the shrimp do the work for him. Despite the nature of the sea, the sky was bright and stark clear. Folding his hands across his chest, Narav considered them quietly. Miles away across this very sea, his father and sister had vanished at the hands of pirates in a storm. Shipwrecked, he had incurred the attention of Lisirra and now he was her agent. A year had passed since he last her, a little more...but the distance of time did nothing to ease the sailor's nerves. She was like a cancer, creeping into his thoughts and invading his dreams. Ever since she'd healed him, blessed him, Narav had felt her cruel sadism color his vision. It was as if she were always with him, standing at his side and whispering cruel hatred into his ear. At what point had he begun to like it? At what stage did he stop resisting the insideous and creeping darkness that crawled through his veins?
Was this how his father had felt? The nameless brigand that Edward dared not mention by name? Did he also turn his eyes toward a butcher with interest? Did he consider the feeling of twisting a hot blade in someone's guts to make a point? Narav spit over the edge of the boat and settled back grimly, wriging his hands. Maybe this was justified, in some way. He had earned this curse, this life. Godryn lay dead and buried and his family was gone. Edalene looked at him with such shock and dismay and maybe she should. Son of a common mercenary, of course he would have come to violent ends and violent life. Why bother hiding?
The rod bent slightly, tugging and Narav eyed it suspiciously. He hadn't really expected anything to be biting with the waves so vicious but he leaned forward and lifted the rod from the groove. There was certainly something on the other end, something with a strong will. Narav strained to pull the line up but it jerked him down, his arms burning with exertion. Struggling, the sailor slipped it back into the groove as the slender pole bent dangerously toward the water.
Let the damn thing tire itself out then, he'd pull it up when the stupid creature had given up. A small smile crawled once more onto his face before vanishing suddenly as he caught the gleeful sadism again. Narav sat heavily, laying his head back over the lip of the railing over the churning water. When everything seemed so hopeless, so bleak, what on earth motivated people to go on?
What was there but struggle? This horrible game Lisirra had forced upon him...no...that he had accepted. Sooner play than die.
But here, now, with bloodlust hot in his veins? Perhaps he'd made an error.
Perhaps he should have never come back.
22 Cylus 417
Off the Andaris docks, the small skiff bobbed in the rolling waves. Narav had lashed the boat to the docks earlier in the morning but he found himself rechecking the knots. The water was unusually harsh today, white frosting the crests. Not traditionally a good day to fish, but after the last few Narav wasn't altogether interested in doing it to make money. He baited the hook with a small shrimp he'd snagged earlier today in the wake of more successful fishers bringing their catch to market. There were a few of them in the cheap pail he'd placed on deck, weakly swimming in confused circles. Narav sympathized, feeling like he was smacking his head in a much smaller world as he desperately turned and turned. The insanity with Fridgar, the kidnapping, and Edalene's face when she realized it was him. The frown swam deeper into his face and he speared the struggling shrimp with the barbed edge of the hook. On a whim he twisted it, prompting the little creature to dance in frenzied desperation. A smile found its way to his face and swiftly vanished as Narav realized where it had come from. With a quiet curse on his lips he tied the lure to the fishing line and cast it out into the sea.
Striking the water, the shrimp struggled valiantly before darting out of sight beneath the waves. It wouldn't have the energy or the means to escape the metal speared through its body and perhaps its thrashing would draw a black-back salmon from undearneath the dock. Settling back on the deck, he dropped the pole into the groove where it fit and laid back, letting the shrimp do the work for him. Despite the nature of the sea, the sky was bright and stark clear. Folding his hands across his chest, Narav considered them quietly. Miles away across this very sea, his father and sister had vanished at the hands of pirates in a storm. Shipwrecked, he had incurred the attention of Lisirra and now he was her agent. A year had passed since he last her, a little more...but the distance of time did nothing to ease the sailor's nerves. She was like a cancer, creeping into his thoughts and invading his dreams. Ever since she'd healed him, blessed him, Narav had felt her cruel sadism color his vision. It was as if she were always with him, standing at his side and whispering cruel hatred into his ear. At what point had he begun to like it? At what stage did he stop resisting the insideous and creeping darkness that crawled through his veins?
Was this how his father had felt? The nameless brigand that Edward dared not mention by name? Did he also turn his eyes toward a butcher with interest? Did he consider the feeling of twisting a hot blade in someone's guts to make a point? Narav spit over the edge of the boat and settled back grimly, wriging his hands. Maybe this was justified, in some way. He had earned this curse, this life. Godryn lay dead and buried and his family was gone. Edalene looked at him with such shock and dismay and maybe she should. Son of a common mercenary, of course he would have come to violent ends and violent life. Why bother hiding?
The rod bent slightly, tugging and Narav eyed it suspiciously. He hadn't really expected anything to be biting with the waves so vicious but he leaned forward and lifted the rod from the groove. There was certainly something on the other end, something with a strong will. Narav strained to pull the line up but it jerked him down, his arms burning with exertion. Struggling, the sailor slipped it back into the groove as the slender pole bent dangerously toward the water.
Let the damn thing tire itself out then, he'd pull it up when the stupid creature had given up. A small smile crawled once more onto his face before vanishing suddenly as he caught the gleeful sadism again. Narav sat heavily, laying his head back over the lip of the railing over the churning water. When everything seemed so hopeless, so bleak, what on earth motivated people to go on?
What was there but struggle? This horrible game Lisirra had forced upon him...no...that he had accepted. Sooner play than die.
But here, now, with bloodlust hot in his veins? Perhaps he'd made an error.
Perhaps he should have never come back.