"Speaking in Rakahi"
"Speaking in Common"
"Speaking in Common sign"
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The baby was sleeping and Hart sang to her in a low, soft voice. Ru was small, very small, and he craddled her in her blankets against his chest, looking down into her sleeping face. One tiny hand was curled into a fist against her cheek, and he rocked her gently and cooed to her as he walked the small room. He was at Kirei's.
Outside he could hear children playing. In the other room he heard soft sounds. The baby had eaten not long ago, and Hart had held her and patted her back, careful to support her head. She was so fragile, and yet her fragility did nothing to detract from her perfection. He had been told by the women at Luna's that babies couldn't smile until a certain age, but Ru seemed to smile. She seemed happy.
Just being with her, thinking about her, made Hart happy too.
He loved her, he knew; loved her because of who she was, without even knowing who she would be. He didn't know how to put it into words, even to himself, but his heart felt more meaningful because of Ru. He sang to her, songs he made up or songs his mother or Jovy had sung. Though the baby seemed very deeply asleep he continued to hold her and rock her gently.
That, then, was when the pain struck.
Hart was fine and then he wasn't; he let out a gasp of a breath and, after a moment of disorientation, made sure Ruari was alright. The pain was such that it winded him, and for a time he couldn't talk. It felt, suddenly, as if he was going to fall apart. The baby in his arms burbled in her sleep and breathlessly, Hart gathered his voice to sing to her, lowly, lowly.
He was okay, he told himself. He was fine.
Then the pain struck again, and it was all he could do not to scream.
When he was able, Hart very carefully put Ru down. Then he staggered to the nearest wall. There he stood, hunched over, and tried to breathe.
He was okay again. He was okay.
And then he wasn't.
It wasn't as if he was going to fall apart, he thought in the midst of the attack. It was as if he was going to fly apart, all at once. He took a step and stumbled hard into the wall, then carefully went down to a knee. He started to say something, anything to make it stop, and then the pain was there and he screamed.
The baby in her blankets began to fuss. She started crying.
Hart wanted to go to her but he couldn't. He stayed with one hand on the wall, doubled over, unable to get up. Unable to do anything. He wasn't okay, he wasn't, and then he couldn't even scream it hurt so much. He couldn't breathe. His head went white with the pain. He was being flung apart. He felt his hand slip against the wall and he didn't know if he fell.
Then he was gone, just gone, from the little room where the baby cried.
And suddenly, he was somewhere else completely.