”In the End, we will remember
not the words of our enemies,
but the silence of our friends. "
Martin Luther King, Jr.
not the words of our enemies,
but the silence of our friends. "
Martin Luther King, Jr.
She didn't belong here, didn't fit in.
Vega knew it, as she sat down. Knew it as she heard the blood rushing in her ears, and knew it in her heart.
So she sat.
She sat and looked as Varlum walked up to her. In that moment she saw that his expression mirrored her own and Vega's arms were already wrapping around him, as his wrapped around her. She held tight to him and felt his tears against her skin. Holding tightly to him, she said nothing but she gently rocked from side to side, almost like a mother cradling a child. He was so much bigger than her, but that didn't matter. They were both born of violence, but that was unimportant too. In this moment, Vega held on to her brother and she comforted him, as she got comfort from him.
Hart came up to them, the two of Faldrun's children, and he spoke. Vega kept her arm around Varlum as she turned her head to look at Hart and she smiled. Hart spoke to both of them, and he spoke of Vega contradicting that woman. Vega smiled at that. "That's Qylios, Hart," she replied quietly. The Immortal of courage, of leadership. When Hart explained that, sometimes, he needed to be nicer to himself, Vega got the feeling that perhaps Varlum had said that to him. Arlo joined them, then, and Vega's hand fell into her husbands as she held on tight.
Sometimes, Arlo said, it's others who mirror our truer selves back to us. As he said that, as the words left him, she experienced a real moment of clarity. Of realisation. Of understanding.
She did not belong here. And that was more than ok with her.
Vega smiled, tears in her eyes, then she pulled back a little from Varlum, though she kept her hand on him. "I'm thick as a brick, sometimes." she said softly, to Varlum, Hart and Arlo. "All my life, I was so busy realisin' that I was different, which I was, that I didn't realise that the people who loved me, loved me anyhow, an' the ones who didn't, never would." Squeezing Arlo's hand, she said what he already knew. "It took me a long time to accept myself. I were always different, an' I never understood why or how. Now?" Leaning forward, she planted a kiss on Varlum's cheek. "Now, I know. An' I realised that everyone is. We're all here by choices. Hart, you choose to be courageous an' one of the bravest people I've ever met. Varlum, you've got a heart bigger than anyone I know. Vivian. Gennadiya. They're folks who bring hope an' strength an' joy. But you do ... we do what we do by our actions, by our choices." Smiling at them, Vega shrugged slightly. "I've spent most of this ball feelin' like I don't belong. Don't fit in. An' I don't."
Vega grinned. "Isn't that a bloody good job, because frankly, these shoes are killin' me, an' I jus' wanna go an' drink an' laugh. With my family an' friends." She smiled at them. "Which is you lot, if you didn't notice. Maybe that's a place - together, wherever it actually is, jus' bein' together ~ where we can all be a bit nicer to ourselves, because we're surrounded by family who see us an' accept us an' choose us for who we really are."
Maybe here, in the Ball, where the Betsy's of this world lived, Vega didn't fit in. But here? With those who changed the world for the better by their actions?
That was where she was at home.
Vega knew it, as she sat down. Knew it as she heard the blood rushing in her ears, and knew it in her heart.
So she sat.
She sat and looked as Varlum walked up to her. In that moment she saw that his expression mirrored her own and Vega's arms were already wrapping around him, as his wrapped around her. She held tight to him and felt his tears against her skin. Holding tightly to him, she said nothing but she gently rocked from side to side, almost like a mother cradling a child. He was so much bigger than her, but that didn't matter. They were both born of violence, but that was unimportant too. In this moment, Vega held on to her brother and she comforted him, as she got comfort from him.
Hart came up to them, the two of Faldrun's children, and he spoke. Vega kept her arm around Varlum as she turned her head to look at Hart and she smiled. Hart spoke to both of them, and he spoke of Vega contradicting that woman. Vega smiled at that. "That's Qylios, Hart," she replied quietly. The Immortal of courage, of leadership. When Hart explained that, sometimes, he needed to be nicer to himself, Vega got the feeling that perhaps Varlum had said that to him. Arlo joined them, then, and Vega's hand fell into her husbands as she held on tight.
Sometimes, Arlo said, it's others who mirror our truer selves back to us. As he said that, as the words left him, she experienced a real moment of clarity. Of realisation. Of understanding.
She did not belong here. And that was more than ok with her.
Vega smiled, tears in her eyes, then she pulled back a little from Varlum, though she kept her hand on him. "I'm thick as a brick, sometimes." she said softly, to Varlum, Hart and Arlo. "All my life, I was so busy realisin' that I was different, which I was, that I didn't realise that the people who loved me, loved me anyhow, an' the ones who didn't, never would." Squeezing Arlo's hand, she said what he already knew. "It took me a long time to accept myself. I were always different, an' I never understood why or how. Now?" Leaning forward, she planted a kiss on Varlum's cheek. "Now, I know. An' I realised that everyone is. We're all here by choices. Hart, you choose to be courageous an' one of the bravest people I've ever met. Varlum, you've got a heart bigger than anyone I know. Vivian. Gennadiya. They're folks who bring hope an' strength an' joy. But you do ... we do what we do by our actions, by our choices." Smiling at them, Vega shrugged slightly. "I've spent most of this ball feelin' like I don't belong. Don't fit in. An' I don't."
Vega grinned. "Isn't that a bloody good job, because frankly, these shoes are killin' me, an' I jus' wanna go an' drink an' laugh. With my family an' friends." She smiled at them. "Which is you lot, if you didn't notice. Maybe that's a place - together, wherever it actually is, jus' bein' together ~ where we can all be a bit nicer to ourselves, because we're surrounded by family who see us an' accept us an' choose us for who we really are."
Maybe here, in the Ball, where the Betsy's of this world lived, Vega didn't fit in. But here? With those who changed the world for the better by their actions?
That was where she was at home.