One by one, they spoke.
But the words that stuck through were hers. Her echoes of his own, speaking in unison with him. Flame of her forge. Everything she stands for. Words he had longed to hear for so long, though never like this. Something about the girl had made the Ithecal feel an emotion he had never felt before, not in the same way he had ever looked at anyone. He had even told Evianna, a girl that adored him, that they could stay friends and not more. That despite not yet being with Auya, officially at least, he wouldn't risk what chances he had. For a while, he deemed it hopeless. An Ithecal Lightning Knight, violence flowing deep inside of his veins and war all he knew, had no place with a girl as sweet and kind as her. But she had quickly shown him that wasn't true. Now, however, he knew it for sure. As she kneeled, as she cried - and as she confessed. It was hard to watch. But he did. His eyes met hers and he smiled. As pained as she was he wanted to smile for her. He wanted their confession to be one he remembered with love. With happiness.
Varlum's eyes then followed to each of the others as they said their piece, as they justified her life in the same way he had done. When Hart spoke the Ithecal glanced up, tears finally gone, before giving all but a small nod to the man with a hardened look in his eyes. "Thank you" he said quietly, though he was unsure what for himself. Perhaps defending Auya, perhaps for his promise, perhaps just for being here. Something inside of him thought it might have been all of the above. Despite being in a room of people the Ithecal found himself feeling lonelier than ever. As he stared helplessly at the girl he had fallen so deeply for, there was nothing but a lingering dread. All he could do was watch. In Rharne he could defend her. Break down doors that separated them, call for her when she needed it, fight off anyone that would have dared lay a hand on her. But not here. Here, it was clear the rules were different. Which meant there was nothing. His promise to protect her, now, was nothing. No matter how much he desired it, and would desire it for every moment he breathed, he had failed.
Once everyone had spoken Varlum listened to Vri as he said his own part. But two words sunk in, two words that followed a phrase. 'Have faith'. Of course, he already did. If not for himself then for her, he believed. But hearing it from another, from whoever this man was, mattered. Hope was all he had left now. Hope for the Auya to find the best outcome. Varlum prayed to Ethelynda that the outcome she got was life, that he could protect her going forward as he had vowed to do. But if it meant she had an afterlife better than her current one had given her then so be it. Whatever left her happiest was all he wanted. Anything that he gave her, everything he had wanted to but never could. Whatever that took was worth it. Even if it meant he wasn't there for it. As painful as that would be for him. She would find a happiness, or perhaps the afterlife would have a version of him just for her. So she would never know it wasn't the real thing. She would never feel alone.
Perhaps he would make her happier than Varlum ever could.
Varlum didn't hesitate when he was told his role by the One, ignoring the room that shifted around them as he sat himself up, strong and ready. Now, he would not be weak. Now he would be her love - and her love was strong. Her love was unmoving and unbreakable. That was who she was, that was what Varlum would be. He hoped Auya would forgive him for what he was about to share. If she didn't, he hoped she lived to hate him. At least she would have her life then. "In the time I first met her, Auya Trueheart, she was hurting. Bruised, broken, pained and afraid. Just a bar maid, or that's what many saw her as. None of her bruises mattered to them. Not one of them stopped to ask why. Be it for a lack of care, a prejudice or two, or the alcohol blurring the line between reason. Nobody dared to ask but one man."
Varlum glanced to Auya for just a moment, apology written across his eyes, before turning back to the people around them. "I walked her home after she told me the truth, of what men had done to her. Of the assault she had endured and the pain it had caused her. We met for trials after, in and out, travelling together and spending what time we could afford" he explained, voice remaining strong this time as he focused forward. Refusing to break. Refusing to crack in any way. Not now. He had his time of weakness, he showed her the pain he felt. Now, he showed her the strength she was worth. "But the event, in particular, was a dance. Just one, for a short while. In among a crowd of people who stared and looked, judged and whispered. Eyes focused on the Ithecal lightning knight that dared to affiliate with a woman of red hair. With all the events going on in Rharne, why wouldn't they? For a moment, I was afraid. Not because I could not defend her, I could if I needed to. But because she must have been afraid too. Because I was there out of love for her. I was there out of adoration for her. I wanted it to be perfect."
"And she was bold. She held my arm with pride, smiled at all we met, introduced me to strangers we had never spent time with before. We danced, we hugged, we embraced. We loved and we laughed. We held on to the one thing in the room that mattered. We protected one another. We were the shield to our partner and the wind beneath their wings" he said as he felt her warmth wrapped around his torso as the two held each other close. As the tear fell this time it was a happy one, small but notable as he could almost see how beautiful she had looked. "Despite every bit of harm they had done to her, she had loved. Despite every reason she had to be afraid, she loved. And now, despite everything that has happened, despite watching the man she leaned upon plead for her life and plead for her innocence - she loves. As we speak, she is loving. As am I."
Silence followed for just a trill before he felt it. Both of his eyes moved to where the glass had been and now went dark. He didn't know how or why he knew, yet even the One responded with a tear. As did Varlum. One, two and then many more began to stream as he felt her love and he tried to understand. When the One asked him to continue Varlum stood up, eyes focused on theirs with a stubborn determination. Ferocity was in his veins as the blood of Faldrun flowed through him. "You want me to continue. To tell you what I would give up?" he asked, holding back a snarl as the tears streamed and the blood of his father flowed clear in his features. "You want to know what I would give up for that girl, you even need to ask? If she would forgive me for it, I would die for her. But she would never want that. I would never put that on her shoulders."
"But every part of my life, bar the living? Take it. My job, my home, my friends. The people that knew me once need never remember me again. The people that saw me won't ever remember me. The men and women that I fought beside will never know the name Varlum and never hear it again. My magic will never be cast again, my blessing removed, my title of Defender torn away and the blood of the Immortals inside my veins gone. I will give it all up. None of it matters, not if it means I get her back. She is worth it all."
"Just bring her back to me. Give me back my reason for being."
But the words that stuck through were hers. Her echoes of his own, speaking in unison with him. Flame of her forge. Everything she stands for. Words he had longed to hear for so long, though never like this. Something about the girl had made the Ithecal feel an emotion he had never felt before, not in the same way he had ever looked at anyone. He had even told Evianna, a girl that adored him, that they could stay friends and not more. That despite not yet being with Auya, officially at least, he wouldn't risk what chances he had. For a while, he deemed it hopeless. An Ithecal Lightning Knight, violence flowing deep inside of his veins and war all he knew, had no place with a girl as sweet and kind as her. But she had quickly shown him that wasn't true. Now, however, he knew it for sure. As she kneeled, as she cried - and as she confessed. It was hard to watch. But he did. His eyes met hers and he smiled. As pained as she was he wanted to smile for her. He wanted their confession to be one he remembered with love. With happiness.
Varlum's eyes then followed to each of the others as they said their piece, as they justified her life in the same way he had done. When Hart spoke the Ithecal glanced up, tears finally gone, before giving all but a small nod to the man with a hardened look in his eyes. "Thank you" he said quietly, though he was unsure what for himself. Perhaps defending Auya, perhaps for his promise, perhaps just for being here. Something inside of him thought it might have been all of the above. Despite being in a room of people the Ithecal found himself feeling lonelier than ever. As he stared helplessly at the girl he had fallen so deeply for, there was nothing but a lingering dread. All he could do was watch. In Rharne he could defend her. Break down doors that separated them, call for her when she needed it, fight off anyone that would have dared lay a hand on her. But not here. Here, it was clear the rules were different. Which meant there was nothing. His promise to protect her, now, was nothing. No matter how much he desired it, and would desire it for every moment he breathed, he had failed.
Once everyone had spoken Varlum listened to Vri as he said his own part. But two words sunk in, two words that followed a phrase. 'Have faith'. Of course, he already did. If not for himself then for her, he believed. But hearing it from another, from whoever this man was, mattered. Hope was all he had left now. Hope for the Auya to find the best outcome. Varlum prayed to Ethelynda that the outcome she got was life, that he could protect her going forward as he had vowed to do. But if it meant she had an afterlife better than her current one had given her then so be it. Whatever left her happiest was all he wanted. Anything that he gave her, everything he had wanted to but never could. Whatever that took was worth it. Even if it meant he wasn't there for it. As painful as that would be for him. She would find a happiness, or perhaps the afterlife would have a version of him just for her. So she would never know it wasn't the real thing. She would never feel alone.
Perhaps he would make her happier than Varlum ever could.
Varlum didn't hesitate when he was told his role by the One, ignoring the room that shifted around them as he sat himself up, strong and ready. Now, he would not be weak. Now he would be her love - and her love was strong. Her love was unmoving and unbreakable. That was who she was, that was what Varlum would be. He hoped Auya would forgive him for what he was about to share. If she didn't, he hoped she lived to hate him. At least she would have her life then. "In the time I first met her, Auya Trueheart, she was hurting. Bruised, broken, pained and afraid. Just a bar maid, or that's what many saw her as. None of her bruises mattered to them. Not one of them stopped to ask why. Be it for a lack of care, a prejudice or two, or the alcohol blurring the line between reason. Nobody dared to ask but one man."
Varlum glanced to Auya for just a moment, apology written across his eyes, before turning back to the people around them. "I walked her home after she told me the truth, of what men had done to her. Of the assault she had endured and the pain it had caused her. We met for trials after, in and out, travelling together and spending what time we could afford" he explained, voice remaining strong this time as he focused forward. Refusing to break. Refusing to crack in any way. Not now. He had his time of weakness, he showed her the pain he felt. Now, he showed her the strength she was worth. "But the event, in particular, was a dance. Just one, for a short while. In among a crowd of people who stared and looked, judged and whispered. Eyes focused on the Ithecal lightning knight that dared to affiliate with a woman of red hair. With all the events going on in Rharne, why wouldn't they? For a moment, I was afraid. Not because I could not defend her, I could if I needed to. But because she must have been afraid too. Because I was there out of love for her. I was there out of adoration for her. I wanted it to be perfect."
"And she was bold. She held my arm with pride, smiled at all we met, introduced me to strangers we had never spent time with before. We danced, we hugged, we embraced. We loved and we laughed. We held on to the one thing in the room that mattered. We protected one another. We were the shield to our partner and the wind beneath their wings" he said as he felt her warmth wrapped around his torso as the two held each other close. As the tear fell this time it was a happy one, small but notable as he could almost see how beautiful she had looked. "Despite every bit of harm they had done to her, she had loved. Despite every reason she had to be afraid, she loved. And now, despite everything that has happened, despite watching the man she leaned upon plead for her life and plead for her innocence - she loves. As we speak, she is loving. As am I."
Silence followed for just a trill before he felt it. Both of his eyes moved to where the glass had been and now went dark. He didn't know how or why he knew, yet even the One responded with a tear. As did Varlum. One, two and then many more began to stream as he felt her love and he tried to understand. When the One asked him to continue Varlum stood up, eyes focused on theirs with a stubborn determination. Ferocity was in his veins as the blood of Faldrun flowed through him. "You want me to continue. To tell you what I would give up?" he asked, holding back a snarl as the tears streamed and the blood of his father flowed clear in his features. "You want to know what I would give up for that girl, you even need to ask? If she would forgive me for it, I would die for her. But she would never want that. I would never put that on her shoulders."
"But every part of my life, bar the living? Take it. My job, my home, my friends. The people that knew me once need never remember me again. The people that saw me won't ever remember me. The men and women that I fought beside will never know the name Varlum and never hear it again. My magic will never be cast again, my blessing removed, my title of Defender torn away and the blood of the Immortals inside my veins gone. I will give it all up. None of it matters, not if it means I get her back. She is worth it all."
"Just bring her back to me. Give me back my reason for being."