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18th of Cylus, Arc 717

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Things are not as they seem. Despite the recent complications in Rynmere's political affairs, I am doing well. Today, I am off to investigate the local businesses, as I've heard tales of looters and lusty fiends prowling the area. Maybella is a marvelous woman, for the most part, but moreso are her children -- I'd have loved an opportunity to come to the Garden earlier, if only to see the smiling faces of Venora's future.

I often wished to be an orphan in my youth, of course, as per the abuse I faced. Would I have been happier if I had been sent off to an establishment like that, away from my nobility? Perhaps. I can only imagine myself now -- a slummy accent, a ridiculous bounce in my step, a life of crime and searching for more. Perhaps my lack of father would have led me to desire to be one, rather than constantly swatting away marriage proposals and breaking the hearts of Ladies all lined up to meet me in a mid-Saun cathedral.

Regardless, I go on tangents. I've done well, lately. Sincerely well. I've met a man named Fridgar, and I love him. I'm a bit worried for him, and the way things will change when others know of us, but I'll stride through it. I've come to accept that maybe I'll never be the Lord I wanted to be, because of my deformity, as some would call it. My inability to simply marry a noble woman and go on with it all. My will for freedom, to pursue what I want.

And I want Fridgar. I'm supposed to be seeing him now. I'll have to make myself look nice.

Alistair, 18th of Cylus, 717

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It was a cruel morning. The warmth of Fridgar at his bedside had receded, the man disappearing from the Duchy to pursue the end of his relationship with Rey'na. Alistair shivered in his room, and occupied himself in writing, surrounded by blankets and books. He read one such book now, opening it shortly after the last stroke of his pen in writing into his personal journal.

The book was titled "The Complexities of Change, and the Cycles of Public Interest". It was about the changing of regimes and styles of government, typically led by a waning of public approval on current systems. It was a book every nobleman in Rynmere should have read by now, already, as it strongly related to their current situation. Written by Charles van Joeberg. That was a familiar name. Some political writer from a few centuries ago, by his recollection? Maybe.

"They say," he began to read aloud, "that the secret to maintaining public support is of maintaining support within. Not just at the top, but additionally, in the places that ripple below. If you have a man who declares, such as a town crier, ensure his loyalty. Seek to affirm his biases, and if not, create them. Contact his employers, apply pressure, see that they apply to him that same pressure. Utilize ideology. You must see that others directly around you believe of your right to rule, before those far beneath you will ever imagine it. It is a spatial connection - the lowest among your spatial connection will, if loyal, relay your positive reputation to those around them, rippling downwards until the common man or even the common slave hears of your excellence and productive leadership." He read intently, following the words with a nod.

So what, then, was the issue with the current nobility of Rynmere? In all likelihood, he believed it was their usury, their greed, their primadonna behavior, their inability to acknowledge the merit in those below them. The nobles of this Kingdom would rather work upwards than downwards, and so those below them, rippling their prestige downwards, only saw an enigmatic if not malevolent entity. It was time, then, for them to return to their roots - of communing with the people. Of being like common men.

He nodded his head, and closed his book, standing up to straighten out his clothes and prepare to see his mate. He waited. He watched walls, and said nothing. Fridgar would come. He'd eventually come.
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He'd not slept, not ate, not drank. Fridgar felt dead on his feet. It might have been down to his confrontation with Rey'na, or the 24-break meditation he'd just finished on his new Fridgar totem. The first step to re-making his arsenal of totems, this time better. He needed bigger, better, stronger. Perhaps some animals in Etzos could be of use? He sighed. No way in hell was he going to stay in Etzos for an arc, he'd find a way out as soon as Vuda healed him. The ring he was currently wearing was useful, however.

His fingers traced over the bone wrapped in skin that floated about in his pocket loosely. His brown eyes looked up while he was walking, freezing in surprise suddenly. What was he looking at? A picture of himself? Hand drawn on deer skin, a wanted poster - he was wanted? In a hurry, Frid rushed the poster and yanked it from the post, running while he read over it. "Attempted regicide, vandalism, assault, murder, acts of magic... shit." His eyes rolled down the page to the big writing, dropping his jaw at the price put on his head.
After what felt like breaks of running and resting, he reached the gates of Alistair's home, short of breath and sweating from the forehead. Taking hold of the gates bars, he started to climb before suddenly appearing in Alistair's bedroom. "Huh? Oh... you portaled me?" Fridgar asked with a tilt of his head. Shaking said head, he spoke again "It's so good to see you! I uhh..." he stopped, suddenly realising that he didn't have any good news to share with his lover. Well, except for the fact that he was now entirely Alistair's without a Rey'na anymore.

"I finished it with Rey'na, we can be together for real now - if you still want to..." he started, his posture spoke nervous as he tried to little himself, narrowing his stance and holding the sheet of deerskin with both hands firmly. "As for this... well. I'm sorry, Alistair. But my explosion at the ball has had more than one set of consequences." He bowed his head a little and inhaled deeply before handing over the sheet to Alistair and beholding his wanted poster.

He shook his head while Alistair looked over the poster. "I-I'm so sorry. I should have just left it, I shouldn't have thrown that door." The giant Lothar's voice shook in distress before clenching his fist. He'd let Alistair down, how could he ever go public about their relationship if he was a criminal wanted dead or alive for three onyx nel? "I'm so fucking sorry, Alistair. I don't know if I can ever come back to Rynmere after I go to Etzos." He whimpered,not seeming to realise that Alistair didn't know he was headed to Etzos.
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Fridgar was nearby. He could sense it, via the bond they'd formed in the initiation. All he needed to do was focus, relax, meditate upon it. In the depth of the silence he'd created around him, alone and thoughtless within the chilly space of his room, he could begin to see the tether once more. Closer, closer, closer. Fridgar was running to his tower, and if Alistair wasn't quick about letting him in, he'd end up climbing. He knew the man, and his silly determination; his boisterous behavior.

As he looked out and saw the other man, Alistair pulled back his fist, resulting in a focused portal that zipped Fridgar into his room. He suppressed the sound as best as he could, looking around beforehand to ensure no one would see, and afterwards to ensure no one had heard. Believing himself to be in the clear, he covered his window with the curtain, and sighed. Alistair hadn't really yet come to terms with the fact that his lover was a fugitive. He didn't even think about how dangerous it could've been for Fridgar to leave Venora in order to end things with Rey'na. But he had to go alone, didn't he?

I finished it with Rey'na, he said. Alistair's heart fluttered for a moment. Fridgar was really his, then - and his alone.

We can be together, for real, now.

"Fridgar," he spoke, shaking his head at the man as he said 'if you still want to'. "Of course I want to. I haven't changed my mind in the time it took you to say goodbye to her for me." However, that didn't mean their relationship was going to be easy, and in truth, it was unlikely that it would go public in the near future. Not unless Alistair wanted to say his farewells to the idea of ever becoming King, and perhaps even becoming Duke. Such a scandal could destroy his reputation, let alone the effects it could have on his house. Venora was equally as important to him as his own happiness, and at least near as important as Fridgar was. Making that choice would be one of near impossibility.

Especially after being shown the paper. A bounty on his head... fifteen hundred gold nel. He'd never seen such a large bounty on a singular person. The Coven had members far more dangerous than Fridgar, but they were all secret in nature, and no one had ever been able to evaluate their danger. Fridgar was a clear foe of the Crown, now -- and an enemy of the system. He had been considered a grave threat, and now he laid wanted within the Kingdom. Alistair was housing, and bedding, an enemy of the crown.

I shouldn't have thrown that door, the man said. Alistair only looked to him, nodding in agreement. He wasn't going to sugarcoat it. "Fridgar," he began, placing the poster atop his desk, "I love the man that you are, despite all of your flaws. Your danger is only an aspect of the passion you bear. When I decided that I wanted to be with you, it was knowing just how messy it could've gone. Even so, I do not relent in my commitment to you. However..." he paused.

Alistair had to be blunt. But he didn't know how to say it without... sounding judgmental, or rude. The man shut his eyes, thinking upon it all.

"You must learn to control your anger, Fridgar, and master it. It is something I have struggled with for a long time, but I've never been subjected to something like this. A bounty. It isn't impossible, love. I would know. I--"

Be honest.

"I am marked by Syroa. With her blessing came a great deal of uncontrolled rage. Even now I have a difficult time reconciling it. It's grown so strong in me." He clenched his fists, taking a breath. Truthfully, he was angry about all of this. All of it. Fridgar wouldn't be able to return to Rynmere? Fridgar would go to bloody Etzos?

Why Etzos? Why was he leaving?

. . .

"I don't understand. What do you mean, after you go to Etzos?" The mage turned to look his lover in the eye, his own gaze narrowed, with an expression that looked as lost as it was hurt. Was this really to end so soon?
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A smile spread across his face upon hearing Alistair. He'd confirmed it; they were together for real now. Though something bothered Alistair about it, he couldn't tell what exactly, but the human felt... off. "I'm glad!" Fridgar announced with a sort of concerned look in his eyes. Whatever plagued his lover’s thoughts, he hoped that Alistair would soon share the burden. Regardless, he had to show the bounty to Alistair. It might have pained him or upset him, but he wouldn't hide anything from his mate if he could help it.

Alistair nodded in agreement before speaking in a way that Fridgar recognised as a build up before a heavier conversation; They were having another one of these. The mage spoke of how much and why he loved Fridgar, filling the Lothar's cheeks with red joy as the man spoke... Then came the drop after a pause, Instructions or demands of learning to control his temper. "I love you too, but..." Fridgar cast his eyes to the floor, tapping his claws together while he stood and failing to make eye contact with his mate. "I wouldn't have to Lash out if people were just civil, you know..." The guilty-looking Lothar explained, almost defensively. He listened to the rest of what his lover had to say, tilting his head halfway through his sentence.

"Who's Syroa?" he asked with a furrowed brow. "An immortal? An immortal of rage...?" Fridgar asked, apearing interested in the concept. He shook his head gently with closed eyes. "I don't know, Alistair. I just get... so fucking angry, you know?" Fridgar's clawed paws clenched and un-clenched as he thought to himself before voicing his train of thought. "Would you teach me? How to control it, I mean?" Alistair must have known how, If he'd dealt with the influence of a mark of rage, perhaps he'd be capable of helping Fridgar too?

Fridgar reeled his head back with a squinted eye as if to ask 'are you being serious', in regards to Alistair’s question about Etzos, before widening his eyes in understanding. "Oh!" Fridgar spoke suddenly, "I never actually told you about where I went after the ball, huh?" Fridgar cleared his throat, eager to get the story on the road and maybe wipe the miserable look from Alistair's face. "Those prick guards arrested me and shackled me in some dungeon, they stole all my totems and everything, the cunts." Fridgar's face curled with rage at the thought, evidently still sore about the whole ordeal. "Anyway, some guy, a rupturer named Filch, offered to get me out if I put on a ring and did some work in his fields over in Etzos, neat right?" his rage faded, leaving a soft smile in its wake.

The Lothar put his hand on Alistair's shoulder and rubbed up and down, an attempt to comfort the saddened human. "They want me to work for them for an arc, but like fuck is that gonna happen. I'd sooner hang than be some bossy twat's bitch boy for an arc." The Lothar smiled at his lover, kissing him on the forehead. "I can't come back to Rynmere, not until things calm down..." Fridgar sighed, shutting his eyes. "If I do come back to Rynmere, I might have to hurt a lot of people. And I hate to say it, but you know I would." His brown eyes settled on Alistair, assuming a serious look before continuing.

"This isn't the end if you don't want it to be. After I'm done there or after I escape, I'm heading to my homeland, I think. They're on the same side of Idalos." warmth would envelop Alistair in the form of a hug, a hug that would lift him from the floor if needs be. "Come with me..." Fridgar whispered in his ear with a sniffle. Alistair couldn't see, but it felt as though the big burly Lothar was tearing up - his body shook a little and his heart beat picked up. "I-I'm sorry. I know how much Venora means to you. If you decide not to go, I understand." He lied, how could he understand his lover choosing status over himself?

"Whatever you choose, I'm so sorry." Fridgar hugged that little bit tighter into his mate, burying his features into the male's soft neck and kissing him gently in another effort to comfort him. This was a difficult situation, one that he wished he hadn’t dragged Alistair into.
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If people were just civil... he muttered. The mage thought about it, intently - he understood what he meant. Fridgar wouldn't have to lash out if everyone wasn't such a cunt. Yeah. Perhaps less civil would be the more proper way to describe it there - their civilized methods of approaching things were often infuriating. Alistair had begun to understand this, finally. As much as Syroa's influence had caused him pain, it had also liberated him. Liberated him from... the clutches of propriety. Fridgar, arriving when he did, became the final nail in the coffin; Alistair had all but abandoned the way he used to believe. The way he used to think, and see things. That had all passed.

Which was why, he did not say 'abolish' your anger. He said control. Master it. Harness it when you desire, as Alistair did. As a follower of the Immortal of Fury, he knew very well that he could come to tame the beast. They could both see their passion and rage come to their benefit, rather than live as their own greatest adversary.

"Syroa is an Immortal, yes," he said, nodding. "She's not much better than Rey'na's Lisirra, though. I'm not going to lie to you - I've dallied in dark things for a long time. That was why I so immediately recognized Rey'na for who she was." It wasn't entirely that she was a mirror reflection of him, but rather, another. Ellasin Dathlande. That was who Rey'na reminded him of, strikingly. All she needed was an obsession with magic, and the impersonation would've been spot-on.

"She is the Immortal of Lust, Fury, Acting and Transformation. I never liked her. I've always just... lived with her. She's become a part of me, begrudgingly, and that's okay. She's taught me some things. She's helped me embrace emotion, something I'd never been able to do. I used to feel almost nothing. Nothing... not even in the greatest or most terrible of moments. I had nothing inside of me; I was all so... hollow. Syroa gave me a different life. When one emotion came, inspired by her wanton desires, all of them began to rush in. Now I'm a mess, but I'm worth something. I care. I want. I crave." He felt odd for speaking of himself in such a manner. The mage had always been so poised, until now.

And that made him realize... maybe being so controlled, so disciplined, so appropriate wasn't worth it all. Was he happier before this array of emotion flowed into him? No. Perhaps more set to acquire political power, but there was no joy to be found. He was just an abomination of ambition, with little of value to contribute, a bureaucratic sociopath. Now, he had ideals, and dreams, and these things came from his emotions. His strong, rampant emotions. Perhaps trying to force Fridgar to live a life of restraint wasn't, ultimately, what would be good for him. Maybe...

Maybe Fridgar could embrace his anger, and funnel it into a different place. Not on civilians, or in simple games... but in a different setting. He didn't want to fundamentally change Fridgar. He had to be honest with himself - the part of him that wanted his lover's wrath to quell was the politician in him, the person that wanted to become King, the person who wanted to confine and contain this scandalous disaster he'd amassed at his feet.

Was that the man that Fridgar deserved? No... Fridgar deserved so much better than that.

He came first. What he wanted came first. Upon realizing all of this, Alistair's tone changed. He moved closer to Fridgar, placing his fingertips over his wrists, stroking down the back of his hands. "Don't lose your anger, Fridbear. This world is full of, in layman's terms, fucking dicks. Sometimes, they get me angry too. I want to just -- obliterate them. Use all that magic at my disposal... tell them I'm the alpha. Sometimes they deserve it. Sometimes they should be destroyed. It's about finding that moment, at the right time, in the right place." He nodded his head, averting his eyes from his lover to look out the window, the darkened city revealed before him.

Almost everyone in Sabaissant was a treacherous twat. That was the damn truth.

Maybe this Kingdom deserved Fridgar's anger. It needed to change.

"Don't lose your fury. That's part of you. Just... use it at the right time, on the right people." He had no specific examples for him. All he meant to portray was that emotions that strong should be used responsibly. These lash-outs didn't have to end in disaster. They could end in liberation, or vengeance, or something that men valued. Not falsely pinned claims of regicide, or a Lord of Krome nearly being impaled by wooden splinters, or whatever happened in that room at the ball.

And look where it all got him - the dungeons, with everything taken from him, and an obscure Rupturer rescuing him. And a rupturer, at that...? So odd. They were few and far between - how would any of them know where Fridgar was, let alone how to penetrate a cell?

Etzos... why would he come from Etzos just to grab one Lotharen criminal? There had to be something else to this story. Not something Fridgar knew, in all likelihood, but something.

He didn't know. His thoughts were soon replaced by sensation, falling into his own serendipity at being comforted and massaged by the Lotharen, kissed and cradled by him in short succession. Fridgar always made him feel better. His touch was a reminder that no matter what, it would all be okay. It would be. But not easily.

"You don't have to come back to Rynmere. I'll come see you," he whispered, nodding his head. He was enveloped entirely in the man's embrace, falling limp into his mate's hold as he inhaled, exhaled, and attempted to re-assert control over his own body. How could he say no to Fridgar like this? He was just so... affectionate. Of a like he'd never have again. He couldn't just leave him. This isn't the end if you don't want it to be.

Of course Alistair didn't want it to be. Of course. He could never say goodbye to this -- whatever power meant, this was more than that. This was his opportunity to start a real life, to love and be loved. How could he say goodbye to that? How could he even imagine leaving Fridgar to die, alone, in Etzos beneath some schemer's thumb? He couldn't do that. He'd only just gotten back to Rynmere, but he couldn't just...

The man began to tear up. He was almost whimpering, his body shaking at the sheer emotion he'd felt. He really... he really didn't want Alistair to leave him. He didn't want this bounty, this crime, to be the end for them. And he felt this way because he understood what he was asking for Alistair to give up -- everything. Everything he'd ever wanted.

Alistair was embraced even more tightly, the Lothar burying his face into his neck and kissing along his soft skin. Alistair would've reeled back and let the passion overtake him, if he didn't know that right now, a decision had to be made.

And he'd already made it.

"Fuck it," he said, wrapping his arms tightly around his lover's back. "Fuck it, Fridgar. Fuck it all. All my life, I've only known my dream to be a thing assigned to me at my birth. I was told to live quietly, in compliance, learning of all these things - whether or not they were me, they would become me. Nobility was ingrained into me from the moment of my conception, and-" he paused, and took a breath. "I want... to try living a different kind of life. I want to be with you, Fridgar. What does anything else matter? I'm not going to just completely abandon Rynmere, I'll still fight for that dream I was assigned. Maybe I'll even come to crave it for my own reasons. But I won't give up on you, either. I'll stay with you in Etzos, I'll come with you to Uthaldria. And, at any point, if I decide that Rynmere isn't worth even a moment of being away from you - then I'll leave it forever. Forever. I won't look back. You're what matters."
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"I was gonna say, you don't strike me as the religious type!" The Lothar chuckled nervously. This was obviously something that bothered Alistair, but for reasons unknown to him. Was being blessed by an immortal something that took a lifetime to accomplish? Why did Alistair seem to hate that he was marked? If he didn't know any better, he'd have assumed that the mark was forced on him, or he accepted it against his will. But what we're the odds of that, right? Fridgar appeared deep in thought while Alistair spoke of Syroa, after some contemplation, he decided not to pressure his lover on the subject.

At first, Fridgar had been overwhelmed with an intense feeling of dread, then joy at seeing his lover again, then dread once more as they spoke of things that the Lothar had likely avoided until now. How could he ask this of his mate? To give up everything for their love? It wasn't fair of him to ask so much from the human three trials into their relationship, but Fridgar had fallen so very in love with Alistair, separating now would be nigh impossible. He needed to ask. Even if Alistair chose his status over the Lothar, they'd find a way - of that much, he was sure. The ability to sense Alistair's location was beyond useful, with that in place, he could practise his rupturing then see Alistair whenever he felt like it, right?

The dread soon came to pass, replaced with an all-knowing smile. Of course, Alistair got angry with the pricks that infested the world. How couldn't he? They were everywhere in a disparity of shapes and sizes. he had the blue girl from the ball in mind, that bitch had cost him everything. Six arcs of totem gathering all to be wasted in a single night. What is more? He needed to leave the home he'd made yet again to go to some overseas country and work in a field to repay his debt? She needed to suffer for her actions as he had suffered.

"I know who the right people are, that bitch from the iron hand. She's fucked with me more than once, this time she cost me more than a night in the dungeon, I nearly hanged because of her." Fridgar's lips curled, he wanted nothing more than to hear her scream in that trill. In truth, she'd just been a sassy bitch and pissed off the wrong Lothar, nothing she did deserved his wrath, but Fridgar didn't see it that way. His back straightened, digressing for now - as Alistair said; the time would come.

Alistair melted into his arms as he'd hoped, the sensation of his mate's soft heartbeat against his chest brought him comfort and joy. Alistair couldn't see, but hearing that he would be visited had taken the light from his features, his heart sank into the pit of his gut. Could that mean Alistair had chosen Venora? He'd frozen in the embrace, 'No, Please. I can't just see you every once in a while. I need you' raced his thoughts. All these things he wanted to say. Hell, if he weren't thinking of Alistair's well-being, he'd have fallen to his knees and begged the mage to stay with him. But Alistair's happiness mattered, if he were happier as a noble then so be it. Fridgar would just have to cope somehow.

With all of his heart, he projected his affection into the human in the form of kisses and cuddles, trying to remind him that he loved him in his own language, common just didn't have the words he needed. It was now that Fridgar's mind gave way, he couldn't beg Alistair to stay and all that pent-up emotion let itself go in the form of tears and shakes. Fridgar planted kiss after kiss into his love's neck, enveloping the smaller male in his ever-burning passion, or trying to. Alistair wasn't taking it, or so it appeared when he didn't even flinch at his administrations. He'd always lived by the words 'what's the point of doing something if it doesn't make you happy?' but he'd found a reason to let Alistair go; to make Alistair happy. Even if he were miserable, at least the man he loved would have his future ahead of him.

Fuck it came the abrupt voice of Alistair, halting Fridgar in his tracks. He waited a trill before pulling his head back to meet eyes with Alistair. His scarred face had reddened with streams of tears rolling down his cheeks and his eyes glistened in the darkness. Alistair returned the embrace at last, holding him tight while pouring out his heart to the Lothar in his arms. Fridgar listened to every word, doing his best to comfort the tender one he held with the most loving cuddles he could manage, he would dry his tears with his sleeve while hugging Alistair.

He halted once more, listening to what his lover was saying, waiting until Alistair was finished. I want to be with you the noble spoke You're what matters. Fridgar shook with un-harnessed adrenaline, could this all be happening? "Y-you mean, you want to stay with me and visit Rynmere instead?" as opposed to visiting him every so often, Rynmere and him had switched places. What is more, there was the chance of Alistair giving up on the stupid island of Rynmere to be with him completely.

Pulling his head back, he met lips with Alistair and closed his eyes. Again, expressing himself in the physical rather than common. "Thank you" he spoke between kisses, losing himself to a burst of passion. "I love you so much, Alistair." He spoke again before returning his lips to the male's in a blaze. Should Alistair be paying attention, he might notice that Fridgar's passion was somewhat laced with sadness. Alas, he broke the kiss "But don't feel like you have to for my sake. Do this for you." Fridgar spoke what he perceived to be wisdom. From everything he'd heard, the life of a noble ill-suited Alistair - he could use a break from that life.

He opened his mouth to speak once more, but no words came. Instead, he kissed Alistair on the forehead, gently. His arms would squeeze that little bit tighter yet again around his mate as he cradled him, promising warmth and safety for as long as they were together.

"I have to go back to Andaris, Filch is gonna pick me up from there some trial soon, I think." Fridgar announced with a saddened look. The loving giant would kiss Alistair on the cheek while holding him, still. "I hate to ask, but would you mind...?" Fridgar needed a lift. "I won't be in Rynmere much longer, Alistair. But I can't wait for you to come and find me in Etzos." Alistair could find him too, with the mutual sense they had for each other. Should Alistair open the portal for Fridgar, he would put the human down before speaking "Thank you, I love you so very much, try not to miss me?" before stepping through the portal.
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[Mature] Another Day (Fridgar)

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The Lothar's passion was intense. He'd never quite felt so adored before as now, with the man picking him up, cradling him, kissing him and expressing himself in all manner of actions long before his lips parted to speak words. Fridgar was emotional. He wasn't like many other men, with a quietness to his heart, a fear of expressing emotion. No - he felt, and he felt strongly, and he didn't fear expressing it. His eyes began to tear up, and his voice carried pain, believing that Alistair would ultimately choose Rynmere over him. The mage knew what it was, this fear of his. It was a fear that he carried himself - that he'd choose his duties over everything, his life, his happiness.

All of this begged a great question. The greatest question he'd ever answer. Being in Fridgar's arms right now, being loved, being showered with kisses and the Lothar's warm embrace... he'd never felt happier than at moments like this. Perhaps the only time he'd felt happier than now was when they first professed their love, after nearly freezing under the bitter cold of the Cylus sky. But was this happiness worth it? Was it more important than becoming Duke, Emperor, or even King? Could Alistair make everyone happier, not just himself, being in that infinitely prominent position?

He had told Fridgar that he'd chosen, but he was afraid. How could he just surrender it all?

I love you so much, Fridgar told him. His heart warmed up; his body was filled with butterflies. Because...

"I love you too," he said. And he did. So much. He'd never felt so wanted by anyone before, and he wouldn't likely feel this way after.

But how could he reconcile all of this with his birthright? With the expectations that had been handed down to him for so long? He...

He suppressed all of this thinking, for now. Just a moment ago, he'd said fuck it, because he felt that love too. That strong, passionate, affectionate love that Fridgar had. Yet, as always in dealing with his emotions, he recoiled when the thought of duty passed over into his mind. Maybe he and Fridgar could stay? Or come back when this was all over? His bounty, though... three onyx nel. Alistair's house would be buried by the scandal if he loved -- or married -- someone of such a poor reputation.

And Fridgar was impossible to miss. He'd never be forgotten.

It was a choice, then. Rynmere or Fridgar. Power or love.

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As Fridgar asked to be taken back to Andaris, Alistair nodded his head, moving in and getting on his toes to kiss his burly mate on the lips. He wrapped his arms around Fridgar's back, pulling him into a tight, wanting caress, knowing it would be the last he saw of him for at least a few trials, and likely more.

"I love you, Fridgar. I really love you. Please be safe. I don't know what I'll do if someone manages to claim that bounty on you."

He opened a portal to an isolated alleyway in Andaris, the same he'd used after escaping Marcus Krome. Looking through and seeing no one, he nodded his head, gesturing for his lover to step through after the two had broken their embrace.

"I'll come to you soon, I promise, Fridbear."

And perhaps by then I'll know, really, the life I want to lead.
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Here you are, dears

Alistair

Knowledge:
Fridgar: Has a lofty bounty on his head
Personal: What you want comes first
Politics: Maintain public support by maintaining support within party
Politics: Reach from top to bottom of tier to ensure ripple effect
Politics: Utilize ideology
Rey’na: Reminds you of Ellasin Dathlane
The Complexities of Change, and The Cycles of Public Interest: Book about change of regimes and styles of government rooted in public approval

Loot: N/A
Injuries: N/A
Fame: N/A
Devotion: N/A

Story: 5/5
Collaboration: 5/5
Structure: 5/5
Magic: These points may not be used for magic

Fridgar

Knowledge:
Alistair: Marked by Syroa
Personal: You’re a wanted man
Psychology: Voicing understanding, but not truly understanding

Loot: +1 1500 gn bounty on your head
Injuries: N/A
Fame: N/A
Devotion: N/A

Story: 5/5
Collaboration: 5/5
Structure: 5/5
Magic: These points may not be used for magic


Comments: And Fridgali strikes again! I do so love reading your threads. They're very entertaining! Please PM me if you feel I missed anything so we can fix it :D
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