2 Ashan 717
Edalene wandered through the stacks, her eyes resting gently on each title, her fingers trailing along through the dusty stacks. It had been seasons since some of these books had been touched, arcs, perhaps, for others. The musty smell in the stacks was strong, overpowering, and the scent would cling to Edalene's hair and clothes whenever she finally left. Eventually, her bedsheets would smell of old books, too, and perhaps she would crumble into the sheets like old parchment, herself.
She was dawdling. She knew that. But her work had finished for the day and she did not want to go home from the library and see her brother. Not because it was Aeodan; heavens knew she loved her brother with all her heart, but he had been acting different towards her recently. Edalene knew why. Of course she did. How could he be the same? And while Edalene was beyond grateful that Aeodan had accepted her and loved her nonetheless, there was some quiet masochistic part of her which thought - no, knew - he should hate her. And no, not even passively hate, but throw her to the guards and demand for her hanging. It would be what she deserved, she knew.
And yet, Aeodan did none of those things. Aeodan continued to love, and love, and love. He was there for her. Smiling gently, always an open ear. And yet, for all that she was grateful, she felt ill. Guilty. How had she discounted him so much for so many years? Had she always thought him so incapable, so weak as to handle horrible truths?
Edalene swallowed, shook her head of these thoughts. Chose a book at random. Cyndy Gale, A Novel of Old. It looked light and ridiculous, but still, Edalene settled onto the floor and leaned against the stacks, and began to read. Anything to avoid going home for a little while. Just until she could look Aeodan in the eye.
Edalene wandered through the stacks, her eyes resting gently on each title, her fingers trailing along through the dusty stacks. It had been seasons since some of these books had been touched, arcs, perhaps, for others. The musty smell in the stacks was strong, overpowering, and the scent would cling to Edalene's hair and clothes whenever she finally left. Eventually, her bedsheets would smell of old books, too, and perhaps she would crumble into the sheets like old parchment, herself.
She was dawdling. She knew that. But her work had finished for the day and she did not want to go home from the library and see her brother. Not because it was Aeodan; heavens knew she loved her brother with all her heart, but he had been acting different towards her recently. Edalene knew why. Of course she did. How could he be the same? And while Edalene was beyond grateful that Aeodan had accepted her and loved her nonetheless, there was some quiet masochistic part of her which thought - no, knew - he should hate her. And no, not even passively hate, but throw her to the guards and demand for her hanging. It would be what she deserved, she knew.
And yet, Aeodan did none of those things. Aeodan continued to love, and love, and love. He was there for her. Smiling gently, always an open ear. And yet, for all that she was grateful, she felt ill. Guilty. How had she discounted him so much for so many years? Had she always thought him so incapable, so weak as to handle horrible truths?
Edalene swallowed, shook her head of these thoughts. Chose a book at random. Cyndy Gale, A Novel of Old. It looked light and ridiculous, but still, Edalene settled onto the floor and leaned against the stacks, and began to read. Anything to avoid going home for a little while. Just until she could look Aeodan in the eye.