"It looks like we'll be parents then"
They were just seven words, yet their repercussions were, and would continue to be enormous. They were both reeling, still, and it was the next day. Kura had been and they'd had a discussion with her, following which (and before it, in fact) Faith had fallen asleep. She was beyond exhausted, her feet and legs swollen and the dark circles under her eyes indicative of the fact that she had pushed herself during the twenty trials since Aelig had shown up and told her she was pregnant and when, yesterday, a visit from Vri had revealed the pregnancy, it had also revealed the strain she had put her body under. For the first time since Aelig's initial visit, last night she had slept soundly, falling fast asleep and staying that way all night and past the point that he'd risen by a couple of breaks and this morning she looked better. Not great but better and her expression told of a whole world of difference.
"Did you sleep at all?" Faith asked him, once they'd got back from breakfast, just stepping into their room together as she put down her key. She thought by this point he probably looked worse then her. The look of panic on his face had not abated in the slightest and, in fairness, she was aware of a certain wild-eyed look in her own expression. She was about to say something else, but instead clutched at her stomach and let out a sound of surprise. Not pain exactly but an exclamation of shock, surprise and a little bit of fear all rolled up in one. Instinctively, one hand went to her swollen belly and the other reached out for him. "Padraig! Oh, I think this is kicking...ohhh, that's... " She took his hand and placed it where the kicking was. In fairness, she didn't need to because it was visible under her blouse. Faith was very thin, only just beyond scrawny at the best of times and this bump stuck foward very noticeably. The kicking was both visible and easy to feel. Until now, it hadn't happened at all but they would discover over the next few trials that this baby was active ~ very active ~ in the mornings.
"Can you feel that?" She looked at him a little wide eyed, panic and delight competing for first place in her expression. In the end, it was a draw. "Our baby kicks. Oh. Well, that means it's got legs. Which leads to all sorts of bother, really. Like, walking and running and falling over. But not when it's born. I mean, it has legs. But not for walking. Just, sort of there really. I wonder why they have them when they're born if they're no use." Faith looked up at him and breathed in, then out again slowly. They were just another appendage to squeeze out, after all. "So, we've decided what we're going to do, yes? Now, therefore, we need to work out how." Other people might question, come the morning, if they'd both meant what they said but that wasn't them. Faith knew without a doubt that they had made a decision and they were both now in the same place and the decision made wasn't doubted in her mind. Of course, abject terror was the place they were both at, but by Vri's blessing it was a better place than where they had been. This was their child and they would love it unconditionally; now the trick was to work out how to not kill it in the process of raising it, she considered with a gulp.
When he'd been out yesterday, getting some pickled beets and salted caramels for her, Faith had popped, or more accurately waddled, to the library at the Order. Which meant that there were a pile of books stacked on the dresser. They loomed there, filled with things that she didn't know and, for the first time in her life Faith didn't want to open them. Knowledge and learning were sustenance to her and always had been, but she was finally starting to think about there being things that she was happier not knowing about. Imagine that, she thought.
"I think we should think about this in stages. It's all too big otherwise." His hand was still there on her stomach, her left hand entwined with it and Faith looked up at him as they stood there. "You," she whispered as her right hand caressed his cheek with a gentle touch. Once she'd done that, she dropped that hand into his, squeezing gently. "Me," her eyes didn't leave his as the baby kicked again, both of them feeling it plainly and Faith smiled as she winced. She was terrified but there was no doubting him or them, "and us. The three of us. I know it's huge, but it's just another impossible thing. The moment you knew you loved me, you knew it was impossible, didn't you? I was a slave, owned by another man and even if I were ever freed, how could I ever be truly free in my heart? We excel at impossible, you and I and this? This is just.... well, it's not impossible, is it? People do it." Other people. Not them and come to that, not either of their parents, which was something of an issue for them both. But people did. "I mean. How hard can it be?" Her tone was far too bright and chipper to be honest as she asked that.
"Alright. I have fears and worries. You do too. But those are big things. Big fears and big worries. They'll get smaller when we've got the practicalities sorted." She hoped. Please Famula, let the big fears and worries get smaller. Faith moved to go and sit on the bed with her back against the wall and her legs raised up onto the bed sticking out in front of her. She looked down at her stomach and she smiled at him. "I look ridiculous. I called myself a teapot to you once, do you recall? I feel like one now. Alright. I think we should stay here in Rharne until the baby comes. I don't know how well I'll cope with travelling right now, and we're living in a place filled with medics. So, I think we should stay here, but that's open to discussion." That was, of course, until the baby came.
Faith looked at Padraig then and spoke it as she thought it. "I don't want to go back to Andaris. I was a slave there and I don't want to be that to this child. I'm pregnant and this is our baby and I'm free and all of those make my head spin. I think, once the baby is here we should go and introduce it to your grandfather, who you should write to and tell by the way, sell the house and then lets go to Viden so that you can go to the Academy there and continue your studies." She had no idea where Viden was, really, or anything about it but she wanted him to continue his studies and she wanted to not be in Andaris and those two things worked, to her mind, well together.
Once they'd gone round that, she looked at him and nodded her head, encouraging him to speak. "Your turn. What's next?" One thing at a time, after all and, may all the Immortals help him, as they made decisions, Faith picked up the parchment she had grabbed on her way past and she made notes.
They were just seven words, yet their repercussions were, and would continue to be enormous. They were both reeling, still, and it was the next day. Kura had been and they'd had a discussion with her, following which (and before it, in fact) Faith had fallen asleep. She was beyond exhausted, her feet and legs swollen and the dark circles under her eyes indicative of the fact that she had pushed herself during the twenty trials since Aelig had shown up and told her she was pregnant and when, yesterday, a visit from Vri had revealed the pregnancy, it had also revealed the strain she had put her body under. For the first time since Aelig's initial visit, last night she had slept soundly, falling fast asleep and staying that way all night and past the point that he'd risen by a couple of breaks and this morning she looked better. Not great but better and her expression told of a whole world of difference.
"Did you sleep at all?" Faith asked him, once they'd got back from breakfast, just stepping into their room together as she put down her key. She thought by this point he probably looked worse then her. The look of panic on his face had not abated in the slightest and, in fairness, she was aware of a certain wild-eyed look in her own expression. She was about to say something else, but instead clutched at her stomach and let out a sound of surprise. Not pain exactly but an exclamation of shock, surprise and a little bit of fear all rolled up in one. Instinctively, one hand went to her swollen belly and the other reached out for him. "Padraig! Oh, I think this is kicking...ohhh, that's... " She took his hand and placed it where the kicking was. In fairness, she didn't need to because it was visible under her blouse. Faith was very thin, only just beyond scrawny at the best of times and this bump stuck foward very noticeably. The kicking was both visible and easy to feel. Until now, it hadn't happened at all but they would discover over the next few trials that this baby was active ~ very active ~ in the mornings.
"Can you feel that?" She looked at him a little wide eyed, panic and delight competing for first place in her expression. In the end, it was a draw. "Our baby kicks. Oh. Well, that means it's got legs. Which leads to all sorts of bother, really. Like, walking and running and falling over. But not when it's born. I mean, it has legs. But not for walking. Just, sort of there really. I wonder why they have them when they're born if they're no use." Faith looked up at him and breathed in, then out again slowly. They were just another appendage to squeeze out, after all. "So, we've decided what we're going to do, yes? Now, therefore, we need to work out how." Other people might question, come the morning, if they'd both meant what they said but that wasn't them. Faith knew without a doubt that they had made a decision and they were both now in the same place and the decision made wasn't doubted in her mind. Of course, abject terror was the place they were both at, but by Vri's blessing it was a better place than where they had been. This was their child and they would love it unconditionally; now the trick was to work out how to not kill it in the process of raising it, she considered with a gulp.
When he'd been out yesterday, getting some pickled beets and salted caramels for her, Faith had popped, or more accurately waddled, to the library at the Order. Which meant that there were a pile of books stacked on the dresser. They loomed there, filled with things that she didn't know and, for the first time in her life Faith didn't want to open them. Knowledge and learning were sustenance to her and always had been, but she was finally starting to think about there being things that she was happier not knowing about. Imagine that, she thought.
"I think we should think about this in stages. It's all too big otherwise." His hand was still there on her stomach, her left hand entwined with it and Faith looked up at him as they stood there. "You," she whispered as her right hand caressed his cheek with a gentle touch. Once she'd done that, she dropped that hand into his, squeezing gently. "Me," her eyes didn't leave his as the baby kicked again, both of them feeling it plainly and Faith smiled as she winced. She was terrified but there was no doubting him or them, "and us. The three of us. I know it's huge, but it's just another impossible thing. The moment you knew you loved me, you knew it was impossible, didn't you? I was a slave, owned by another man and even if I were ever freed, how could I ever be truly free in my heart? We excel at impossible, you and I and this? This is just.... well, it's not impossible, is it? People do it." Other people. Not them and come to that, not either of their parents, which was something of an issue for them both. But people did. "I mean. How hard can it be?" Her tone was far too bright and chipper to be honest as she asked that.
"Alright. I have fears and worries. You do too. But those are big things. Big fears and big worries. They'll get smaller when we've got the practicalities sorted." She hoped. Please Famula, let the big fears and worries get smaller. Faith moved to go and sit on the bed with her back against the wall and her legs raised up onto the bed sticking out in front of her. She looked down at her stomach and she smiled at him. "I look ridiculous. I called myself a teapot to you once, do you recall? I feel like one now. Alright. I think we should stay here in Rharne until the baby comes. I don't know how well I'll cope with travelling right now, and we're living in a place filled with medics. So, I think we should stay here, but that's open to discussion." That was, of course, until the baby came.
Faith looked at Padraig then and spoke it as she thought it. "I don't want to go back to Andaris. I was a slave there and I don't want to be that to this child. I'm pregnant and this is our baby and I'm free and all of those make my head spin. I think, once the baby is here we should go and introduce it to your grandfather, who you should write to and tell by the way, sell the house and then lets go to Viden so that you can go to the Academy there and continue your studies." She had no idea where Viden was, really, or anything about it but she wanted him to continue his studies and she wanted to not be in Andaris and those two things worked, to her mind, well together.
Once they'd gone round that, she looked at him and nodded her head, encouraging him to speak. "Your turn. What's next?" One thing at a time, after all and, may all the Immortals help him, as they made decisions, Faith picked up the parchment she had grabbed on her way past and she made notes.