87 of Ashan, 718
Rharne
Pepper listened carefully as Arlo explained about the hypothetical six connections that separated all individuals in the physical world, nodding to show she was following along. On the face of it, it sounded preposterous, but she supposed it could be true, especially if one included everyone they were acquainted with, however distantly. It seemed it would be useful to start keeping track of the new people she dreamed about too? She didn't like to exclusively rely on her memory for such things, but she wondered if this wasn't a case of taking on work without even knowing if it'd be useful..
It seemed like she'd just have to trust she and Miret would
know about things as needed, at least as regards dreamwalking. She nodded once Arlo finished his explanations,
All right. and tried not to let her disappointment show. She supposed it was illogical, but she had had such high hopes that Arlo and Vega, and especially Arlo, would be able to help her with the whole dreaming business.
I just find it easier to understand things if I have a framework to think about things I guess. I'll have to trust Jesine and Miret, and myself to some extent I suppose, that I won't end up doing something terrible through ignorance. We'll concentrate on practising the mechanics like you suggest. Pausing for a trill, she essayed a small smile at Vega.
Miret tells me I often run without knowing if there is ground ahead. I'm sorry I asked you to do something that's taboo.
Her awkward and strange fascination with Arlo had receded to the background while her focus had been on the dreamwalking stuff, but now it started making itself felt again. Pepper felt nervous for no reason, and rather graceless. She fumbled with her writing supplies and even dropped her pen once as she put the journal and pen away in her pack again. She also, very late, noticed that both Vega and Arlo looked uncomfortable and tense about something. Vega, in fact, looked like she was angry.
Starting to feel a bit sick now, she mentally called
Miret?
Miret had moved to perch on the back of the spare chair once Pepper put down her basket and pack. She had been in favour of this meeting, and Arlo and Vega had made a good impression on the diri. They were clearly much more experienced and had been pretty tactful about Pepper's mistakes. Miret hoped that the perspective of other mortal dreamwalkers would help Pepper get a grasp on some things she'd been struggling with.
It wasn't her place to question Jesine, but she had always thought Pepper had been marked too young. The girl was almost foolishly optimistic about things and only learnt better when the headlong rush resulted in an injury. It wasn't age as much as experience and caution that the girl lacked. So she'd recommended partially sealing the girl's dreamscape till she grew up some more. Only lately had Miret begun to completely unseal Pepper's dreamscape for a handful of trials at a time, judging and hoping that the girl was ready to start learning the more strange and dangerous parts of Emea. It would have been wrong to have delayed this any further. She truly had come to love the girl, and in addition to the guidance and protection she was honour bound to provide, she had vowed to do her best to make sure that Pepper retained that
brightness as long as possible.
Swinging her feet from her perch, she'd idly listened to the talk, but she very quickly detected something off about Pepper's responses. She was sharing just a bit more about personal details than she was wont to. Once she began paying closer attention to the three mortals, it didn't take her long to identify the matter.
Honestly, Miret was more amused than worried at first. This was the first real instance that Pepper had noticed a
boy (even if said
boy was her age, and half again), and it was abundantly clear to Miret that Pepper herself had no clue why she was feeling.. unsettled. If Miret had been asked her preference for the kind of man she'd pick for Pepper to have her first crush on, Arlo would have almost perfectly fit the bill. He was much older than Pepper, was in a clearly stable romantic relationship with a capable and beautiful woman, was tactful and wasn't going to be around for arcs and arcs. Pepper had zero chance here and what wouldn't kill her would make her stronger.
Miret settled in to watch, if Pepper didn't wise up on her own, she'd clue her charge in private later. In the meantime though, Pepper's confusion and nervousness, and inability to shield both, were adorably funny, but also somewhat cringe-worthy. Maybe she should drop Pepper a hint... She looked at Arlo and Vega to see how they were dealing with this, expecting to see them fighting amusement, what she got instead was signs of temper and discomfort. Miret's amusement cooled fast. She was frowning at the two, wondering how they could be taking any of this seriously, when the other diri piped up.
Miret's personality was pretty calm, even though her form was fire. She was more the warmth of a fireplace with the blizzard outside and the comfort of a campfire in a dark night rather than the fury of a volcano or the destruction of a forest fire. By the time Lyova finished, she knew she would be making an exception in this instance.
Miret? Pepper's sending broke through to her, and she quickly sent a short sending to Lyova saying she'd talk to her in a bit.
Yes love. I know. she tried to soothe her charge as best as she could.
Things have become a bit stressed, and I know you don't know why.. Miret thought for a trill, trying to figure out a way that would still give Pepper and the couple a chance to be friends, she knew how much Pepper needed good people around her.
Remember when Sylvie met Max? You are being her, only not as bad. And you've been ignoring Vega a bit..
Oh. Pepper felt winded. Sylvie and her family had moved to the village last Saun, and she'd gone through a brief but intense phase of infatuation with Pepper's eldest brother, Max. Pepper hadn't been around a lot when Sylvie had called at the house, but she remembered a few occasions when Sylvie had proceeded to ignore everyone in the room except Max. Her mum had laughed later saying it wasn't a big deal, but Pepper could very well recall the feeling of being invisible. She swiftly went red, then white. This was horrible. How do I fix this. She wanted to ask Miret, but that, she felt would be a childish thing to do.
Pepper knew she got too wrapped up in herself and wasn't very good at reading people, but she knew that Vega deserved an apology at the very least. She had been nothing but welcoming to Pepper and didn't deserve rudeness. It wasn't going to be pretty, but Pepper wasn't one to not own up to her mistakes either.
Taking a deep breath, and with her hands tightly clasping each other beneath the table, she looked up at the couple sitting in front of her. Her voice was low and shaky with nerves and embarrassment.
Miret just told me I've been very rude.. It was hard to meet their gaze, especially Arlo's. What was her brain
thinking, Vega and Arlo were clearly a couple, hadn't she been feeling good about seeing that in the dream!
I.. I've been ignoring you and mostly been paying attention to you.. She forced herself to meet Vega's and then Arlo's gaze. Her throat clogged up with embarrassed tears, and she gazed fixedly at the food in the middle of the table.
I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to do that.. I don't know why.. This was beyond hard and she was barely audible now.
Should I just leave now? She managed to finish. She'd have a good cry later once she was home.
Miret turned to Lyova with eyes glittering with anger,
You missy, are beyond rude, and certainly ought not to be talking about manners. Miret was trying her best to stay civilised, but her sending was choppy and sharp with rebuke.
Do not presume to tell me my job! Pepper's a good child. And you should know that the approach a diri needs to take depends on the individuals personality and their maturity level. What do you know about her, or me for that matter? Miret paused, trying to keep her outrage in check and failing.
And she's been making eyes has she? She didn't feking know she was attracted to him. She's a *child* and Arlo is her first crush. What's your excuse for acting all holy? You don't even have enough politeness to send directly to me and not let your mortal hear you trying to scold me. Lyova's anger finally ran cold, as she indicated Arlo and Vega with a nod
I liked your folks honestly, and I trust Jesine to not mark anyone bad. Vega's been good about not letting her upset spill out in words too. But they and you have some growing up to do as well if you can't notice that Pepper has done nothing worse than been somewhat distracted. Also I know my girl, she's already steeling herself to apologise. You on the other hand, I'm not very impressed with. Doesn't your definition of guidance include showing them when they are being needlessly suspicious? If you or yours hurt Pepper... Miret's focus immediately shifted to Pepper as she began to speak.
OOC
Sorry about the wall of text
This was a hard one to write, so took longer than I'd hoped for.